The sea is so beautiful. I think I will go for a swim...
I am so depressed right now. I have lost everyone I cared about. No one understands my problems except for maybe Dr. Mandelet. I'm going to go back to Grand Isle to contemplate.
Just when I thought I could spend some time with Robert in my cabin again, Adele just happens to go into labor! I better dress up now and stop by her house to assist her with her new baby! I made Robert promise to stay at my house until I get back; hopefully, he listened.
This is my new house that I just moved into. It is not as stately as my old Victorian home but at least I can be alone and free to do whatever I want. I'm glad that I have no responsibility for anyone!
Arobin and I have been talking more often recently. Although I mean nothing to him, I still find joy with his presence. I think it is time for me to move out. I no longer feel a connection with my husband.
This is my new masterpiece. It describes how lonely I feel in this world and also reflects my sad mood.
I am furious right now at my husband! Not only did he criticize the dinner I made, he also reprimanded me for flouting my "social conventions". Does he think that he is entitled to control me!?? I think not! Dinner at Adele's house only made my mood worse. The "love" that she and her husband has for each other is so bland and colorless, which is much like the stale baguette that they prepared for me! I am giving up everything and devoting my time to art. >:C
I am so depressed currently. A few days ago, I found out that Robert Lebrun, the love of my life, went to Mexico. I am so lonely now as I have no one worthwhile to talk to! I think I'll hang out with Madame Lebrun in hopes of acquiring more information about his circumstance.
This truly has been an amazing Summer! After attending mass with Robert and conversing with him about various topics and issues, I think I am in love with this passionate and loving man!
I am
I am young and confused I wonder at what could have been I hear children's voices I see sun glinting over water I want freedom I am young and confused I pretend to love my children I feel trapped I touch another man's hand I worry for my sanity I cry for my lot in life I am young and confused I understand I should stay I say I deserve my freedom I dream of a life I want I try to be a mother and an individual I hope to be free I am young and confused. Okay fellows... I think Robert may indeed be infatuated with me. Since the time of the party where I learned how to swim, he has been following me around and trying to start conversations with me. Back at my cottage, we stared at each other quite some time at the porch before he finally got up and left. I think something special is happening between us two! I can't wait to converse with him again tomorrow; we are both going on a boat trip.
Today, I heard the best and most thought-provoking song ever! When Mademoiselle Reisz played Chopin on the piano, tears fell from my eyes as I reminisced about my unfulfilled desires and love from my youth. I must strive to satisfy my fancies!
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